something i learned Today (restricting)
Good Afternoon Everyone !
So .... Today I learned something that I feel is motivational to share from experience. Although I shouldn't have missed lunch (First unsupervised) i guess something positive came from it. I learned that " that feeling" of achievement and control and happiness..... Didnt come. I felt angry for letting anorexia in again , for making me feel that way again , for the upset and anger it caused my parents , for the lack of concentration I had in classes this afternoon, for the anxiety and guilt for binning a full lunch. Keep that in mind, learn from that mistake and PLEASE don't let anorexia tell you otherwise. " I was excited to finally miss a meal again I'll admit that , but now ? I feel guilty for the right reasons. For depriving my body of its energy. STRENGTH is not your ability to STARVE yourself" , stay strong.
So .... Today I learned something that I feel is motivational to share from experience. Although I shouldn't have missed lunch (First unsupervised) i guess something positive came from it. I learned that " that feeling" of achievement and control and happiness..... Didnt come. I felt angry for letting anorexia in again , for making me feel that way again , for the upset and anger it caused my parents , for the lack of concentration I had in classes this afternoon, for the anxiety and guilt for binning a full lunch. Keep that in mind, learn from that mistake and PLEASE don't let anorexia tell you otherwise. " I was excited to finally miss a meal again I'll admit that , but now ? I feel guilty for the right reasons. For depriving my body of its energy. STRENGTH is not your ability to STARVE yourself" , stay strong.